Everybody has to start somewhere, right?
I'm going to be honest: I've been slacking off.
That's the only reason there is. How else would I be obese right now? Obese. That hurts. As it should. I've lacked discipline and let myself get this big. The most fucked up part about it? When I look in the mirror I don't see someone who's obese. I don't think I look that big, at least not with my clothes on. But when someone takes a photo of me, then I see it. And I hate it.
I've had disordered eating since I was 12 or 13 and I've been trying to lose weight ever since. The longest I've fasted was 16 days, but I've also eaten thousands of calories worth of ice cream, crisps and sweets in one sitting.
No more.
No more binges. No more being the fat friend. No more shame, clothes that are too tight or being ignored. Because I'm going to show the world who I really am.
That's the only reason there is. How else would I be obese right now? Obese. That hurts. As it should. I've lacked discipline and let myself get this big. The most fucked up part about it? When I look in the mirror I don't see someone who's obese. I don't think I look that big, at least not with my clothes on. But when someone takes a photo of me, then I see it. And I hate it.
I've had disordered eating since I was 12 or 13 and I've been trying to lose weight ever since. The longest I've fasted was 16 days, but I've also eaten thousands of calories worth of ice cream, crisps and sweets in one sitting.
No more.
No more binges. No more being the fat friend. No more shame, clothes that are too tight or being ignored. Because I'm going to show the world who I really am.
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